Summer is busy for me. And I love it because it is busy. At the end of the day I always feel happily worn out and that I have accomplished something of note.
But for me, I have to watch that feeling of accomplishment because sometimes I do things just to do them and spread myself too thin across a list of things that may or may no matter in the long run.
I’m really good at doing. Even if the doing is simply sitting and reading a book I have to watch myself.
I get really caught up in doing. To the detriment of other things, at times.
The things that don’t feel like doing, like sitting and playing with babies. Or the things that feel like doing, but I really don’t like to do them…like doing the dishes.
I have a never ending list of things I love to do and want to do. It’s easy it’s fun, that’s just how I roll.
But I have to be careful not to overdo it.
An article I skimmed recently had a point as item number 23 in the list of how to live better (don’t ask me why I actually bothered to click on the link…another time management issue.ha.)
23. Imagine yourself near the end of your life, in a rocking chair on the porch. Ask yourself, “Will I sit in that chair and be glad that I (spent 60 hours a week in the accounting department)?
But it made think.
In the future. When I’m old and gray, will I care about every little thing?
I will appreciate that I ran. I will enjoy that I wrote. As long as O still like reading I will appreciate that habit too, though I highly doubt I will remember much at all of what I read. Specifically.
Some things will be obviously important. My kids. My husband. My family. My relationship with God.
Some things will be obviously trivial. And some things are mundane but necessary.
Out of the laundry list of things to do, it’s hard to know what is best or necessary. There is not a straightforward answer.
All you can do is make the best choice you can in light of what you know now. You don’t have any guarantees on the future. You don’t even really know what will be important to you in the end. But we do know Who holds our time and Who we serve and that might make things a little more clear.
“How many of us dare to use our time or money or talents as we would, because we realize they are the Lord’s, not ours? How many of us have such a strong sense that we belong to Another that we dare not squander a shilling of our money or an hour of our time, or any of our mental or physical powers?”
– Watchman Nee, The Normal Christian Life
But I am not writing this out of guilt or to make anyone feel guilty. I am writing this just to honestly think about my hobbies and goals and time a little more. I want to live well and intentionally. And I think living that sort of life takes a little more thought and consideration than the average day to day bustle allows.
So be free and know that God uses you even when you are unaware. Your kids will, overall, be fine even if you spend too much time reading at times.
But be free and know that we can choose to live differently and think carefully about our choices.
We have many options about how to spend our time.
We live in grace, but we are also held responsible.
It is an interesting dichotomy.
A couple more thoughts on intentionally living:
Disappearing Doors at Modern Mrs. Darcy.
A Letter to My Boys (on screens) at Renee Robinson.
What will you care about in your rocking chair?
(This post is part of my series on living more intentionally. This month’s focus is hobbies.)
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