Is God Enough? Can He Be? Wait. {Shona for #wholemama}

By Shona



Is God enough? Can he be?


A couple of years ago I took part in a Lent course. As part of that course we had a workshop on creating found and blackout poetry from the bible facilitated by  Jamie Bonilla.

I was going through a very difficult time and knowing that poetry does things to me emotionally I was reluctant to try Jamie’s suggestion that we use our own poetry as a channel to let the Holy Spirit speak to us through scripture. I was frightened of what words I might find. I was scared about how they might break me apart.

Eventually I did the exercise she suggested, on a weekend away with a friend, and I don’t think it’s overstating it to say that the words I found possibly changed the course of my life.

Is God enough? Can he be?


There were more words in my poem, but those 6 were my big question, and God seemed to be giving me a one-word answer.


But, but, but…….


I don’t like slow. I don’t like waiting. The only time my children hear me vocalize frustration is when I’m driving and no one else on the road seems to be in a hurry to get to where they are going. From behind the steering wheel I speak aloud my chastisement of other drivers and I criticise their caution.  In slow moving traffic I am a constant lane changer.  I think quickly. I find queuing a best avoided activity. I generate ideas quickly. One of my pet hates is inefficient use of language. If my husband can tell me something in 10 words rather than 100 I’ll be happy.

I am not very good at waiting.

At the time I did the found poetry exercise my life was in pieces on all fronts, and I didn’t know how to fill the gaps again. My faith in God meant that I was willing to trust Him, but I was looking for a quick fix. I wanted things to be better in weeks, not months or years. I wanted some yes or no answers. I wanted to either cut my losses and run or know that I could fix everything.

But God said, ‘wait’.

The thing about waiting is that you stop being in control. You are waiting for someone to act or to change or for something to happen.  I wouldn’t describe waiting as passive, because it can involve plenty of squirming and complaining, writhing and irritation.

I had said that I would trust God. And he told me to wait. To wait in the life I was living. To wait in the circumstances that were present. To not take active steps to change things. It was so difficult, and I frequently came back to my still unanswered question, ‘Is God enough? Can he be?’ I didn’t know.

Years on and I am starting to understand what I was waiting for. I’ve stopped believing myself to be in control of life. I had a very limited understanding of the possible outcomes available, so if I had forged ahead I’d have chosen from a narrow range. Instead, by waiting I’ve allowed God to work. To restore. To provide. To show me that He is enough to satisfy every part of me.

I think that I will spend the rest of my life waiting.  


I’m Shona

I’m a woman of eclectic interests, and a lot of passion! 

Some of the names I carry are mum, wife, writer, food lover, follower of Jesus, wanderer, researcher and instigator of family adventures. 

I’ve been married for almost two decades, but I don’t feel old enough for that to be true. I have 3 children –  two in their teens, and a little one. Originally from Ireland I’ve lived in England for all of my adult life. I never imagined I’d be where I am doing what I do. As a family we are very familiar with chronic health problems, mental illness and life not going according to anyone’s plan. We are also brilliant at finding the funny in everything.

Through it all, I  write about my faith.

The real, messy, complicated yet utterly simple faith I have in the person of Jesus.

You can find me at: Where the Light Gets In  (blog), Instagram Twitter, and Facebook 


Want to join in on our weekly prompt? Write on the word ‘wait’ and link up with us!

We also have our #wholemama facebook group where you can access the prompts early and get to know us in person(ish) :)

10 thoughts on “Is God Enough? Can He Be? Wait. {Shona for #wholemama}

  1. “If my husband can tell me something in 10 words rather than 100 I’ll be happy.” I so relate to this… I am not a long explanation person. I love that you can see that waiting gave you the freedom of more choices. I am also learning to trust.

    Liked by 1 person

  2. This is so wonderful for the season of Advent — we’re caught in the net of “not yet” as we await Jesus’ second advent and the fulfillment of all the promises and prophecies of redemption and fullness. I’m with you — waiting is not my thing, but I’m heartened by the truth that perseverance produces character and character hope, and hope does not disappoint (Romans 5-ish). Our waiting is not for nothing!!

    Liked by 1 person

  3. I am like you in some ways. I can’t stand to get behind slow moving traffic especially when they are well below the speed limit. LOL I’m the kind of person, too, that likes to get things done rather than drag them out. But I’m learning to take time out of the busyness to rest, to look for beauty and meaning and to wait when I need to. “The thing about waiting is that you stop being in control.” I think that might be why it is hard to wait sometimes, but the things is we aren’t ever really fully in control, but we can trust the One who is. I always love your writing, Shona!

    Liked by 1 person

Your space.

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.